Make The Most of This Sh*t Show
I’ve been doing art for pretty much my entire life. I never really had a reason for it at first, I just liked how it felt to put color to paper and different materials to create whatever image I wanted. I didn’t understand color theory or any of the other tools and materials used to create what we call art. I saw images in my head or on the paper and I let my fingers fly. I have always thought of myself being in my own show and I am the main character battling all the hardships of life using what I know and art. I have this huge imaginary world in my head where anything exists but I only put the things on paper that I feel comfortable sharing with whoever will see it. Art is apart of me, a huge piece if you will. When I create something I am literally putting a piece of myself on a canvas and hoping it comes out the way I want it to. It doesn’t all the time. There is a lot of trial and error, a lot of failures (failures are never really failures though, just ways you can’t do something). Art is a process, sometimes a huge one, but you have to trust it. You also have to trust yourself and your ability.
Art is something I’ve always used as a form of escapism but I didn’t realize it until I learned what escapism is a few years ago when I was going through a rough patch. I wasn’t doing as much art as I usually did. I stopped drawing every day and eventually, it turned into weeks. I didn’t know how much art actually saved me until one day someone asked me to help them with their project. At that time I hadn’t done any type of art for a few weeks so I was hesitant to say yes. Throughout the process of creating this project and seeing the person I was helping be so happy with the work I was doing, I realized that art was apart of who I am and that I loved to use it to make not only myself happy but other people too. It was the joy of seeing someone else smile because I was able to bring their vision to life that made me realize I am a designer at heart. That day I realized I like a few things;
- Art is my savior and without it, I am pretty bleak in this sh*t show we call life.
- Depression is real and it’s rough. It takes a toll on your hobbies and interests and especially yourself.
- I love to make other people happy with art.
- I LOVE art with everything I have.
Once I realized how passionate I was about art, I started thinking of it as my superpower in my own anime. I am the main character in this sh*t show we call life so I’m going to make the most of it! It’s going to be colorful, bold, and loud. Since then, I started doing commissions because I saw myself doing art as a long-term career. I still feel the same way I did the first time I brought someone else’s vision to life using art. I think that’s why I’m a designer. No, I know that’s why. I want to make the most out of this sh*t show we call life and make others happy. Art can be used for so many things so I’m going to venture and explore all different types of artistic fields and create my own happiness instead of searching for it. That’s why I’m a designer.
